thank you, Ian

My wiblog  friend Ian made such a gentle query on my previous, long ago, post that I was quite overcome.  I'd give you a link to his blog, but he's taking a break right now. 

He asked if all was well.  No, it hasn't been.  Once I would have bluffed my way through and not made myself vulnerable by  admitting that I was not having an easy time.  With age, I have come to see that this is not honest and I really decieve no-one.

I've been sick again,though not as badly as the first time.  My personal life is a mess and in the middle of an upheaval.  I do not know how this will end.  My husband had problems at work which impacted on things at home.

The youngest baby has been very ill indeed after we thought he was recovering.  This time he really does seem to be improving.  His mum has had some precancerous cells discovered and will need surgery in the next couple of weeks to fix this.  Another daughter-in-law found a suspicious lump and had to have a biopsy.  Fortunately all was clear with that.  The third daughter-in-law suddenly developed a really  bad back and needed some TLC and   help.  My brother had fairly major surgery and has taken quite a while to recover.  This has involved family help as his wife died last year and he has a twelve year old son.

Finally, I think, my best friend has been diagnosed with cancer and she has basically fallen apart since the diagnosis.  All this since my last entry.

A friend dragged me a couple of weeks ago to the Spring School at Chatswood of  New Creation Teaching Ministries .  I have attended this for quite a few years now.  I found it really refreshin in teh talks on the presence of God and it was much needed at the time.  I say "dragged."  I knew I both needed and wanted to go.  However, I think there has been at least some mild depression and the difference between wanting to do something and actually accomplishing it has been marked.  I know the symptoms and I know simple self help measures which can make a difference.  Easy exercise is one.  Many times I've tried to go for a walk and not been able to get out the door.  Once I went about 100 metres down the street and went home.  So "dragged" was an appropriate word.  I'm glad I went.  It was a ray of hope at the time.

So thank you, Ian, for your gentle comment.  it meant much to me.

Comments

[naomi]

i'm sorry that life has handed you an interesting times of late. i hope that things improve or at least settle down to a dull roar.

remember to take care of yourself first. it's not being selfish, it's making sure that you're able to be there for the ones you care about when they need you.

[Ian]

Please know my prayers are with you and your loved ones.

Wonderful though to hear of your friend 'dragging' you places. God does provide light, however dim it may seem, in the midst of darkness.

In prayer; your brother in Christ.
Ian.

[LisaB]

You are such a strong soul,Jan. I hope life brings more sunshine your way soon... but don't forget to lean on the friends that love and care about you, as they have leant on you in the past :)

[Bob Smietana]

jan

Bene D. said you could use some prayer-- so I'm praying now

Grace and peace

[Michelle]

Jan, I'm sorry life has been rough. You're in my thoughts and prayers.